I am an alcoholic, but that really is just a symptom of my real problem. I have the disease of dis-ease. I am restless by nature. I am never satisfied with my life. I am always looking for something that seems to be just out of my reach. It is, needless to say, exhausting being me.
I come from a dysfunctional family. A loving family for sure but dysfunctional nonetheless.
But I have learned to live with my alcoholism and actually thrive in this lifestyle. I have learned to function as an adult despite the behavior I saw modeled as a child.
You see, I have a choice. I can allow my past to dictate my actions and define who I am, or I can use my past as a learning tool so that I can improve as a human being. I like to say I am a spiritual being having a human experience. I am constantly learning about myself and in this case, knowledge is most definitely power.
I suspect that there are very few “normal” people. We all seem to have our ghosts. We all seem to have defining moments in our lives that have shaped us, for better or for worse….and we all have the choice to change things for the better.
I wrote an article on this topic and posted it today on HubPages. You can find it here if you are interested. http://billybuc.hubpages.com/hub/The-Dysfunctional-Family
I hope you enjoy this journey. I think there will be a little something in this for all of you dysfunctional folks. You are welcome here. You are safe here. This is home.